“Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God.” 2 Cor. 3:5, NASB

“What storm are you facing?”

This morning as I chafed under a particular burden, Anne Graham Lotz’s comforting, wise voice spoke directly to me via the radio. I always love to hear what she shares: a thoughtful combination of God’s Word and corresponding, applicable wisdom. For my life. At that moment. Especially today.

Without hesitation I audibly answered her question, paraphrased above. My storm? Homeschooling.

I was experiencing an unpleasant moment of absolutely desiring to Throw. In. The. Towel. Weary of lousy attitudes, lack of motivation (mostly mine), helter-skelter scheduling, etc., I didn’t know which way to turn. But dear Mrs. Lotz followed her question with an encouragement, confidently communicating that whatever the storm, it would carry me closer to the Lord.

Homeschooling–this responsibility I’m often ready to relinquish, this daily sense of being behind, this constant concern my kids just aren’t getting enough educationally–THIS will carry me closer to Jesus?

YES. As I cling to Him in faith, He’ll handle my storm and every crashing wave in between. Nothing confounds or limits Him. NOTHING is impossible for Him. Why worry? GOD IS ABLE! Unfortunately, I waste time and energy entertaining anxiety, trying to homeschool in my own strength. I forget God maintains interest even in life’s ordinary aspects–mine, and yours–that sometimes brew into storms. Despite our frequent freak-out moments and feelings of inadequacy, He’s got it. We simply need to trust.

Now surrendering control yet again to my Lord, peace has re-entered my situation. I watch my children–one cheerfully participating in an online English class while another learns to utilize creativity in the wondrous outdoors. Still another one enjoys free time after successfully presenting a thoroughly researched verbal report this morning. What in the world had me so stressed? I ponder in retrospect. Inwardly chiding myself, I recognize I’m too critical, too fearful about our homeschool state. Perhaps my negativity creates storms–ugh, what a discouraging thought. But even in that case, I hear the Lord’s gentle voice, reassuring me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness” (2 Cor. 12:9).

Breathing deeply, I rest within. God’s grace IS sufficient.Though I’m fragilely weak, HE remains strong.

Already I feel closer to Him.

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8 thoughts on “Closer to Him

  1. I have yet to regret homeschooling my kids. They have all thnked me for their time at home with me before going out to “face the giants”. Did I do it perfectly? Absolutely not. Would I do it differently if I had to do it over again? Maybe. But God gives us more than we can handle so that we can see him glorified in our loives. Otherwise, we get all the glory:-) Persevere, sister!

    1. Thanks, dear Phoebe. One special update since I wrote this post: God has provided a way for us to register two of the kids for more classes at The Potter’s School. So glad you recommended this to us years ago – it’s really been a blessing to our family :). I’m feeling encouraged and hopeful as I look ahead to the 2014-15 school year. God is so good!

      Much love in Christ,
      Emily

  2. This was beautiful! Glad I stopped by. I’ve been trying to do the same thing, rest in Jesus and not get worked up about things, but surrender them to Him.

    Visiting from Juana’s Prayer link-up. : )

    1. Hi Cathy,

      Thanks so much for stopping by ~ grateful the Lord encouraged you by this post. He is so wonderful in meeting all our needs. I look forward to reading your post on Juana’s site.

      In Christ’s Love,
      Emily

  3. You’re so sweet, dear sister-n-law, & your writings are so encouraging. You’re an awesome mom and your kids are a reflection of your sweet spirit and Godly guidance. Love you!

    1. Dear Keren,

      Thank you so much for your loving, encouraging words. Truly God has blessed me with a wonderful husband and our four terrific kids :). The Lord is faithful all through life, and the only good in me/us is all from Him. I love you, dear sister!

      In Christ’s Love,
      Emily

    1. Thank you, dear Jeanne. God is so wonderfully present with us through all we face ~ big and small! Praying for you re: your upcoming retreat. May God speak powerfully through you.

      Much love in Christ,
      Emily

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